Birthdays, unlike proposals, are wonderful things. For attention craving souls like myself, it's one day where the world revolves around us. This doesn't mean it doesn't happen on other days. As far as I'm concerned, the whole universe revolves around me, but usually the people around me are oblivious to this fact. So for them, my birthday is the one day that they see the light, and see for who I am.
I was on the phone with a friend of mine at midnight, when the day finally arrived. She wished me, which was nice, and then a host of phone calls and texts came flowing in. Makes one feel loved. And there is that modern invention that I go on about for hours at end: Facebook. Wall posts needed urgent responses, not unlike the crisis in Darfur.
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How do I feel?
For starters, I do feel older and more mature. For the first time at a birthday, I look forward to the next year, and think of how I can be more responsible in facing (that somewhat scary) future. I feel that I have a certain amount of experience on how to deal with issues, especially thinking about how that pseudo parenting period that I went through with my adopted daughter a while back. But at the same time, I understand that giving advice is an easy thing to do, but following your own amazingly hard.
As to how my emotional state is, I feel horrible. The reason being a combination of me being stupid, idiotic, insane, sad, pathetic, dumb and other negative and demeaning adjectives I can think of, all blended together in one depressing emotional smoothie.
And someone had the cheek to point out that Mt. Vesuvius erupted on my birthday, in 1979. And I did a bit of WikiPedia-fying, which indicated that in 1814 the White House was set on fire and in 1989 the Columbian drug lords declared war on the Columbian Government (not the other way around), and in 2006, Pluto got kicked out from the list of planets.
And how I feel now, is probably how Pluto felt in 2006. For those of you who haven't wished me (and I've reminded a couple of you people), you still have a grace period of one week to wish me. After that, my fury shall be upon you. After all, do you know for a fact that the whole universe revolves around right?
And these are scientifically proven facts. Don't trust me? Google it up! After all, the internet knows everything!
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